|
plankeye
|
read my profile
sign my guestbook
Name: Amanda Sue
Birthday: 8/15/1986
Gender: Female
Interests: God, beaches, water of any kind, fireworks, fall, walks when it's cool outside, coffee, rasberry royale tea, movies, books, hot tubs, stars, thunderstorms, rain, lying in the grass, jumping, finding shapes in clouds, word searches, games, the Vollunteers (yes, that's college football), the book of Ruth, mountains, sunrises, sunsets, morning, birds singing, the smell before it rains, poetry, watching my friends laugh, and colors.
Expertise: dancing, holding hands, cuddling, playing with hair, dressing up, twirling my skirts, being barefoot, cooking, cleaning when I am angry, taking (or drawing) pictures, making my friends laugh, memories, writing stories, poems, being a klutz and loving God and others.
Occupation: Youth Leader
Industry: South Knoxville Church of the
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
MSN: bandanastew@hotmail.com
Member Since:
10/3/2004
|
|
| I've realized that the words 'I love you' mean nothing if there is nothing behind them. We've been told thousands of times throughout our life that actions mean more than words. When it comes to alot of things in our lives this rings true. The bible even says in the book of James that faith, without action, isn't really anything. When it comes to faith actions it means that we go out, we serve, we show others the love of Christ through more than just the words that come out of our mouths, but from the things that we do. When it comes to love actions, what does that mean? It is different for every person, that is why we have the love languages.... gifts, time spent, physical touch...etc... but when your love language isn't being fulfilled, but your partner is telling you that they love you, do you feel love? I doubt it. I don't half the time, but at the moment that can't be helped. gifts, time spent, and phycial touch are all mine, but I am dating a poor man who lives hundres of miles away. So, I struggle with feeling loved. I've been really praying and we're trying to work things out... and he tries with the things that he can do. For example, he has sent me a few letters since we've been apart, and emails, fulfilling my 'words of affirmation' quota (another love language). Yes, he says the same things over the phone, but for some reason, reading the words written in his hand writing make it sound and feel so much better. I don't know, I know that his love language needs aren't being fulfilled either, and I am trying, but Physical Touch is really hard to do long distance. It's hard to love without action, and it's hard to recieve that love without action....even though you know deep in your heart that the love is there. | | |
| What is the truth? The truth is, I am confused, and I am human. Why is he so perfect? Why do I have to find something wrong with him in order to make myself feel better for my own insecurities and short-comings? Anyway, what is on my heart? And what is the truth? A few verses: "Do not fear those things which you are about to suffer. . . Be faithful until death and I will give you the crown of life." -Rev. 2:10 "When times are good, be happy; but when times are bad, consider: God has made the one as well as the other. Therefore, a man cannot discover anything about his future." -Ecc. 7:14 "Be cheerful no matter what; pray all the time; thank God no matter what happens. This is the way God wants you who belong to Christ Jesus to live." -1 Thess. 16-18 | | |
| I had a very good Saturday today. I've been doing VBS stuff for the longest time, and then we had District Assembly, and then back to VBS stuff. So it's been crazy hectic, and added to all of that I had to do two nights of the night shift. So I got in a few hours of sleep this morning, and then I went to Splash Country. Buddy is leaving for MI in a few days and then I'm leaving, so we all wanted to spend time together. So, of course, I had to go shopping for a swimsuit.... with boys. That was fun. If it was Travis, it wouldn't have been that big of a deal, but with others besides for him... a little awkward. But, I got my first two piece. And I told the guys that I figure I'll get a two piece now, even though I may not look good in it because I"m still in the process of losing weight. They all freaked out on me saying that out of all the others girls at Splash Country, I was probably the only one in a two piece that had a body for a two piece. I felt very complimented. And I think part of it is the confidence I felt while in that suit. It's this very pretty purplish color, and I felt like I looked good. With my hair the way it is, my new sunglasses... they were lucky enough to be seen with a girl like me :) Tho, I did forget sunscreen, and my belly got burnt :(
So it was a very relaxing day. I'm at Danny and Sonya's right now, hanging out with all of them. We're going to have ice cream and play games a little later. All in all, it's going to be a good day.
Tho I do have to watch out for a certain boy. The poor kid knows about Travis and I was even talking with him today about how I want to marry T. But, the way he was acting toward me today, I don't think he cares. meh.
| | |
| I am not myself here. I am not enjoying myself like I thought I would. Too many politics, too much tradition, they're too afraid of change... That they'll become and 'emergent' church that never talks about sin and just about the love. That they will disregard the old hymns and that 'modern' worship will take it's place. Why is there that fear? There is a place for Tradition and for everything else. Those hymns are beautiful, just because you look toward the culture around to minister to those around them doesn't mean you have to get rid of those hymns, they still speak to the soul. But the word 'culture' is what shakes them up. You say, "Look at those around you, look at the culture from where they come from, start at that level to reach them," And they will scoff at you and claim blasphemy. Don't they realize that those 'traditional hymns' now were derived from bar tunes hundreds of years ago? The music was scandalous, and now we see it as solid and sacred. Times change, and regardless of whether or not you like it, the church needs to change with it. Don't change the message, because that is timeless and true to its core. There is no getting around the truth of Salvation and Christs work on the cross, there is no getting around the truth of sin and its hold on our lives--the MESSAGE is the same, it's the MINISTRY that needs to change. | | |
| I am trying to figure out my life and it is not going so well. I have this little itch inside of me that just wants to make lists and plan everything out. I have the next two months planned out... but that's only because I am going to be here in TN with my internship. After that... I don't know. And that's what is hard for me. There is so much that I want to do, places that I want to see and live... but in reality I know that wanting to travel around and do all of those things isn't going to happen. Argh. I need to just, as they say, 'Let go and let God' but I don't know how to do that right now. I know that once it comes time to actually make a decision about something, He will help me and will guide me, but I don't have a decision to make right now--I just feel the need to make it right now. That nothing is going to turn out unless I make all of these plans. But, I know better. He will guide my steps because He can see beyond anything that I can see. He knows what is better for my life. It's just all of an issue of me putting that trust in Him. *sigh* | | |
|
